Saturday came last weekend as on any other weekend. But this saturday was not like any other Saturday on any other weekend. Last Saturday was memorable, is how I should put it. We planned last Saturday 2 weeks earlier, so of course it was memorable (marked my calendar).
I went to attend a gathering of old schoolmates in Ampang (1 of my schoolmates' house-->she just got married last dec). It was so nice to see everybody (not like everybody since there were only 10 of us who attended) especially with their new appearences it was amazing I could still recognize them. They weren't really into make-ups and dressy outfits back when we were still in high school (8 years ago) that it made me look twice to make sure that they were who they really were. Still, the tansformation was not that drastic.
We had a 'Pot Luck' gathering. Everybody chipped in with food and drinks. Our host, 'Mc De' took out her electric grill and made some mad bbq chicken!! I can still taste the bbq sauce on my tongue rite now. My friends (Jehey, Jitt, Ong) were put in charge of the grilling. They did a great job (minus some grilled above perfection chicken and sausages--courtesy of Ong). Hehe..still it was a nice bbq afternoon. It wasn't really in the afternoon. Check the pic above--> It was way after 5 o'clock (which explains the early food tasting...Hehe-->we were superbly hungry!!). There was also some spaghetti made by Jitt. She was worried that her spaghetti sauce was gonna get us some food poisoning since it was a little bit sour than usualy. I am still surviving with only nice memories of that fine spaghetti. I was in charge of frying the fries (easy you might think until you have to wait by the stove to make sure that the fries are really fried which took forever..Huh!). Jehey brough her famous kiwi pudding (not sure if that is the actual term for that dish) while Kak Ya made potato salad which she thought was not gonna be enough for us all---She brought a huge food container full of potato salad (we all had our fair share of potato salad that night). So, our menu consisted of Bbq chicken/sausage, sapghetti, potato salad, Kiwi pudding, and Fries. Huhu, we had enough food to feed a small army. We didn't think all of that was going to be sufficient--->We were wrong. We still had leftovers after the night ended. hehehehe..After all, we weren't armies. Just a bunch of a quater century old girls.
We ate and drink (this part satarted late since we waited for others who supossedly were coming-->they didn't) while talking and laughing our heads off at the funny jokes/stories. We got to experience our friends' culinary skill first hand (this is very interesting since most of us didn't know if what we made was edible or not..hehe) and just let loose. It was a nice, small and intimate gathering of old friends. We missed being young school kids again..(really? I actually enjoy being what I am rite now..hikhik)..Anyway, it was so nice !!
Oh, did I mention the photography session? This was the part where I knew we were still silly school kids who rushed at being in front of the crowd to get the best spot in the photo. Hurm, not to mention the goofy faces and poses we made for the camera (GOOFY!!..Really..).Hehe, I realised that day I missed my school and my class back in high school. Wished there were many people who attended. But, of course we're grown-ups now which means there are other important commitments waiting for us. Missing them already..wish We wouldn't grow up so fast..
Just had my breakfast, a mug of instant 'nescafe breakfast' and a pack of 'iko' multigrain biscuits. Now listening to Switchfoot's 'Learning to breath'. Nica catchy song that I can relate to. The lyrics' about starting fresh. Huhu, what a way to start the morning. Even in the first verse it says:
Hello, good morning, how you do? What makes your rising sun so new? I could use a fresh beginning too All of my regrets are nothing new
See, all of us have something we want to forget but never could. Everyday, it's the same thing. You wake up, you go about your daily routines and at some point your regrets come to surface and all attempt to forget them is crushed. So much for starting fresh huh? But that's not the song is about. The meaning goes so much deeper. We are human. We are bound to slip somewhere, sometime, somehow everyday. That's how GOD created us to be. We just have to do it slowly and hope that HE is beside us every step of the way. The chorus says that part clearly:
Learning to breathe I'm learning to crawl I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall I'm living again, awake and alive I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
Life is beautiful isn't it? We don't know what's gonna happen or what to expect. If we did expect something and the outcome was another WAY round--->SURPRISE !!! Like a box of chocolates. Who doesn't like surprises? ME (Good ones are not that bad though, like chocolates..hehe). Nevertheless, hurtful surprises could be more than just surprises as they would leave you bruised and scarred for life hence come regrets. The 3rd verse described this part of life quite straightforwardly..
Hello, good morning, how you been? Yesterday left my head kicked in I never, never thought that I would fall like that Never knew that I could hurt this bad
Haha, I'm kinda of a critique/song-interpreter this morning. Don't get me wrong. This blogging thing is turning me into someone mellow, deep and more aware of emotion-evoking songs. Haha, not even sure if that's what I'm gonna be for the rest of my life. But, if so-->It wouldn't be so bad, right?
Huh, I pray to Allah that whoever I turn out to be in the future, I would be someone who doesn't disappoint my parents, my religion, my country, and mostly myself. Can anybody stand living everyday not liking who they are?
Ok, the whole point of this blog is to remind myself and the rest of you reading this, (not that it's my job to remind you ppl of how you should live your life) that life is there for us to fully live it either in bad or good circumstances. It is a commitment. Don't find a way to run from it (is there anyway we can run from it?) instead take baby steps when you find that one particular day is too much for you to handle. In my case, it helps to think that there's always tomorrow. . . And there are other ppl out there who have it much tougher than you do. Don't you think?
I have not much to write today. I'm trying to remember if anything significant happened to me yesterday. Hurm..(there should be at least one..if not, my life yesterday was spent in vain)..Ok, I've got one.
Last nite I went out with my housemate (Sis Sal) to Alamanda, Putrajaya. She drove (of course)and I hitchhiked (kidding..Hehe). She went bowling with her friends while I spent my time strolling around Alamanda, starting from the Big Apple (the doughnut outlet in which I gobbled down 6 different doughnuts...Whew!!) and ended in MPH (until they switched off the lights indicating that they were closing). Later, I went to buy myself a bottle water from Carrefour. I wanted a plastic bag to carry my socks (brought them along coz my first idea was to go bowling as well-->cancelled). Yawn yawn..(Getting to the significant part already..) Patience is a virtue!
The significant part came later when we were in the car on our way back to our place. We started talking about life changing experiences. Sis Sal, being older than me has many(she'll be thirty sometime in November I guess--oO0ps! not supposed to reveal the age (n_n)). Anyway, one of the topics was how people change in a split second and never go back to being their old selves. It was more about 'You think you know people but you actually DON'T'. We think that we know our friends, but trust me we don't. There are parts of themselves that they keep to themselves and are really careful about keeping them private permanently. Sis Sal said, people think they know that for a fact but they don't until they really experience it themselves. Obviously, we both have experienced it to be able to talk about it. BOth of our experiences didn't have happy ending of course (If any of you reading this had had a happy ending from the same kind of experience, lemme know ok?).
We both thought that being a loner is an acquired special skill that not any mere normal people will get to enjoy their whole life. Not everyone can handle being lonely (Seriously, check out the asylum if u don't believe me). Nobody wants to be lonely (remember the song?. But, we think that it is better to be lonely than be around fake, backstabbing, two-face, selfish people who claim to be your friends just for the sake of being around people (not lonely). I can say for a fact that we will feel much lonelier being around these kinds of people than just being plain lonely. It is not as sad. Trust me. You'll know what to do to occupy yourself. In short, you don't have to be interacting with somebody in order to feel whole. Quoting from the ever brilliant, inspiring 'The Fray', from their song You Found Me:
'In the end Everyone ends up alone Losing her The only one who’s ever known Who I am Who I’m not, and who I want to be No way to know How long she will be next to me'
Spot on isn't it? They probably have experienced the same thing. So, be comfortable with being lonely. As i said, it is an acquired skill. Work on it. It'll serve you well in the future.
Hehe..I got an AWARD..yAY!! i Dunno,..well urm,..I'm speechless.. I would like to thank my mom, my dad, my brothers, My sisters in law, my cousins, my long lost pets,my neighbours and..gosh..I am forgetting a lot of people.. I know, I'm sorry..I'll get you guys on the list later for the next award that I'm getting..Geez..Hehehe..Kidding Belle..Hahaha..
Actually, thanks from the bottom of my heart that u thought of me when u received this award. I can not be more touched than this (I think..?). Well, I dunno if I'm really worthy of this award coz I know a whole lot of other people out there with the same compassion and love that this award describes in its colourful little box...I am not sure if I have the right capacity to be as close as to that loving commitment in the near future or EVER for that matter. hehehe..But still it was so nice of you..!!
Yesterday was Saturday. Today was Sunday. Was? It still is Sunday, for another 2 and a half hour. I am in my room reading a journal. A scientific journal on climate change, to be precise. I know, I know..How can anybody read that on a Sunday night? Apparently I can, only because tomorrow I need to go see my beloved research supervisor for ..I’m not sure what. I figured, I might as well have something prepared since he will for sure prod and be all lecturer-like with me concerning my research (He should be, since I haven’t actually done anything major with my research. Just some minor readings and notes). Actually, that is the reason why I need to go see him in the first place. I need to know what direction he wants my research to be on. This is practically something new in Malaysia. I for one am not sure what I have to do to get started with this research. I need all the help I can get especially his help. I don’t know. Somehow, I feel like he’s been trying to avoid me or something. Not that he doesn’t want to see me or anything like that. It’s just that I feel like he’d rather if I didn’t go see him that often. He once said that a PhD student should be more independent and lees dependent on the supervisor. I guess he was right with some exceptions. First, if I a PhD student should be less dependent on my supervisor, would I need a supervisor in the first place? Second, he said it himself that this is sort of a new field of study in Malaysia so, is he really sure that I can be fully independent doing this research on my own? Haishh…(sighing with really heavy air blowing from my mouth).
Well, it’s time for me to take action. He could be mad at me and torture me and maybe threaten me (as in end my GRA-ship with him), I am going to see him. I need to know what he wants me to do. I really need to know since I’ve pretty much wasted my first semester doing almost nothing. I need to get started on everything that matters the most to me now-->My FUTURE, my LIFE, my STUDIES…
U guys know when I post this it will already be a Monday. So, it’s only seconds away before I go see him and have that moment of truth (exaggerating?). Ya Allah, Tolonglah hambamu yang lemah dan tidak berdaya dan buntu ini…Amin…Bismillahirahmannirahim..Wish me luck guys..!
The title sounds romantic right? Hehehe..It's really not what U think.. SO, this morning which was like 9.15 am this morning we went to this really so called famous eating place called "Kak Mah Nasi Dagang Putrajaya". It is not an unusual eating place or anything, just that it has a very high mouth to mouth reputation about the food served there which in this case--NASI DAGANG (Duh..!).
We've been planning to go there since forever (U know, like everytime u drive pass there U'd write a mental note saying 'I should really try the food out here.Everybody's been raving about how good the food here tastes.'). It's like you'd really feel left out if U fail to at least go try the drinks there (nothing out of the ordinary bout the drinks here too..).
So, we went (We= me, niki, mas, rina). We got there, and then we saw all these cars parked along the road beside the 'restaurant'. We had to make a U-Turn before we could actually find a nice parking spot near it. From inside the car, we couldn't see any available seating places for us to eat at and we thought 'Bummer..! Now, what do we do?'. Obviously we didn't want takeaways since it was a good 15 mins ride from UKM to that place (for a Breakfast..!).
We went in anyway with our heads bobbling up, down , and side to side to see if there was any chance we could get seats. Then this nice 'makcik' (I'm guessing the famous Kak Mah's relative) said, "Come in, there are seats at the back" (Direct translation from BM). SO, we picked out our desirable main courses to go with the nasi dagang. I chose 'Ikan tongkol Gulai' (Sardine in curry gravy-->probably)and 'Ayam masak Merah' (chicken in spicy chili gravy-->possibly). I know, it's quite a lot for a breakfast. But, we thought this is a once in a blue moon occasion so why not make the most out of it...?(haish..starting to regret saying that)
We found our table, we ate..in silent. My first bite was not a nightmare or so to speak. The ones that followed might be less enjoyable. Why? I was expecting for an out of the world taste of Nasi DAgang..but nothing. It tasted like, a mediocre, amateurishly made, easy-profit seeking, half-heartedly done Nasi Dagang. There was nothing exceptionally special about what I just put in my mouth. The rice was not sticky enough. The fish was too salty. The chicken, hurm..were they sure they made 'Ayam Masak Merah'? And to think that I spent RM7.50 on that----> GRrrRR..!!!
aLL throughout finishing the meal, I could only think about how my mom's Nasi Dagang taste 400 million times better and she doesn't even own a high mouth to mouth reputation restaurant. Haiyaaa..!! How did these people eat to even consider that the food tasted good on their tongue? I suggest they go see a specialist on tongue or a neurosurgeon since definitely their brain is sending wrong taste signals.
I don't think I would be thrilled the next time somebody asks me to come along to go eat there. I'd just say I was there..Once in a blue moon..
P/S: going back home this CNY--> gonna ask 'mak' to make nasi dagang for me..(n_n)
1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be ? I've been betrayed b4, I went away. So, I guess I'd just try to be as far away as possible frm tat person bcoz I know tat person juz stopped caring to want to betray you in the first place. 2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be ? I wish I was the brainiest person in the whole world (Hurm..being the richest could be cool too) 3. Whose butt would you like to kick ? That person who betrayed me (this person juz never grows up it makes me mad) 4. What would you do with a billion dollars ? Buy all the latest electronic gadgets, take my whole family for 7 rounds of Hajj, Invest some in profitable businesses, give some to the palestinian ppl so that they could be equally capable as the Israelians, WHat else..DO whatever other human with lots money do--> HAVE FUN ! 5. Will you fall in love with your best friend ? I have lots of best male friends, I never fell in love..I guess FRIENDS is the only word written on my forehead right now..(n_n) 6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone ? BOth..I am blessed tat I have my family who love me and I am capable of loving them back.. 7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love ? If I really, really love this person then I should let this person just BE and move on with my life.Come on, I'm not that melodramatic. I still have my life and my family to pour all my love on..(Lots of love I seem to have..hehehe) 8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do ? The answer goes back to the answer above. Let it go... 9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor ? If I ever had the chance to act, It would be with all the academy award winners so that I could get free pointers and great tips on acting. FREE ACTING CLASS from the BEST..Who wouldn't want that? 10. What takes you down the fastest ? Being looked down by my family..Not that they had ever done that. Just that what they think of me matters you know ..huhuhu 11. How would you see yourself in ten years time ? A career woman(not sure what that would be), Married?(I dunno), Independent, and still look like I'm still 25.(Yihaaaaa!!!) 12. What’s your fear? If I ever forget who I am as a Muslim, as a daughter, and a Malaysian..(Patriotism.ngeh !) and owh, If I ever ran out of time to finish my research or ran out of money..(I hate asking money from my parents..) 13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ? I see the color pink..and PINK..and oh yeah..MORE PINK..HEHEHEHE!! 14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor ? hELL YEaH rich and SINGLE !!...It wouldn't be such a strong marriage if ur poor...so, it's either that or MArried and RICH..ahakzzzzzz 15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up ? I check my handphone to see what time it is and go " oh SHIT !! i only have 15 mins left to get ready" What a way to start my morning huh? 16. Would you give all in a relationship ? No. Simply because I don't have ALL..What does ALL even mean? 17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick ? That's very unlikely..I am not that GREEDY.. 18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done ? go back to Q 1..I don't forgive and forget. They r TWO very DIFFERENT things. I can forgive but I will never forget (its sort of a quality that I don't think I can abandon) 19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship? Right now..being single ROCKS !! 20.List 5 people to tag : hUH..I hate having to do this chain reaction thing..I dunno..Whoever wants to do this personality questionnaires, U R MORE THAN WELCOME..
So, this is actually my first online blog that actually has its own name. I've been uploading my blog online via Friendster. My ex-junior from college talked me into this. She said that more people would actually read this if I have my own blog page. So, here it is. My BLOG.
anYWAY, the reason you blog is not for the sole purpose of having other people reading it, right? It is a medium for you to express your feelings, thoughts and ideas in words. Am I right? I can be wrong. I am Human. No doubt about that. HeheheheheheheheheheheheheheHEHee.. And I laugh too.,,(Surprise !!) Hik, hik..by the by..I have another blog page (the friendster one) SO, if any of you want to check it out you can visit http://davillainz.blog.friendster.com/ Don't expect some extraordinary writings form me.. I am not a WRITER. Just another blogger seeking for a space to feel connected with other people. That's what the web is for right? CheErs..!
This is the year where I'll turn a quarter of a century old, so I might as well document everything that will happen in my life starting from now since I've pretty much missed 25 years of blogging..(hahaha)
So, what is it 'about me' that people would actually be interested in?
I like to EAT good food, be in the company of nice people, and I am the only girl in the family (did u guys want to know that?)
Oh yeah, I am doing this little thing called STUDYING..I know, u guys are probably thinking "Shouldn't she already be working by now?"
My answer would be "I would be if there was any job offered to me before I decided to go back to studying in UNI"
What? U guys actually think I want to spend the rest of my life studying? (WRONG !)
One more thing, I don't actually enjoy club music.Can't understand why there are people who do. And the shuffle dance, come on..Don't even get me started. Where is the art in it? NONE..
And, is there such thing as true friendship?